From Sunrise To Sunset

I can only remember my parents arguing properly once. They were in the kitchen and had a row over a small, petty thing that became pretty insignificant after a while. When people get very upset, I find that it doesn't seem to matter too much what the starting topic was, but suddenly, everything comes out: important and not, relevant and irrelevant. Well that day was one of those times. But when I think about it, that argument means nothing negative to me, actually I see it in quite a positive way. This is because I always remember how I asked my dad the next day how him and mum were and he said 'fine'... not the repeated 'fine' that means absolutely nothing, but the reassuring and calming 'fine' that tells me everything will be ok... dad even asked why I asked, because he had forgotten what had gone on the night before. The thought that this was probably due to him not listening or paying attention to everything never crossed my mind. You see, when I grow up and (hopefully) fall in love, I want to have the kind of relationship my parents have- where they might argue like any human beings do, but the next day they can wholeheartedly kiss each other goodbye and forget anything ever happened. I don't think I had ever witnessed such wholehearted forgiveness until that moment- where you could tell they were still both hurting but decided to put it past them for the sake of my brother and I, and because small petty things aren't worth fighting for. I know I am so lucky to have parents who love each other and are still together, and who have only had one real fight, and I realise that I am one of the fortunate ones. But with the losses that I've experienced the past couple of years, I've learnt that people aren't here forever, and that we need to make the most of the time we have with them, before it's all too late. I want to find that someone who will be like my parents are to each other and who I can be like that to. We'll see where my life takes me, but I honestly thank my parents so much for what they've taught me- intentionally or unintentionally- and if I do or don't find that person, I'm content enough to say that I have experienced what true love is and that I know what I'm looking for.